Not a good day
Not because of the cat. Far from it. Seems she just caught a really really nasty virus and now has cistitis. That is why she is peeing everywhere. The virus was the reason for her massive weight loss and her restlessness. She will stay in the doctor's office until Tuesday and then return home.
So that is not the reason for my feeling ... out of place somehow.
The days are rare, yet sometimes it hits me that I am "just" a mother and wife now. Oh, and a housekeeper of course. I don't mean this to sound devaluating. Most of the time I am aware that I am doing one of the hardest jobs on the planet and am just shamefully underpaid.
Still, there are days like today when I am painfully aware that most of my friends are miles away from me, that I left behind me a life and a job that I liked very much, that the people I talk to are mostly other mothers who have actually nothing else in common with me but the fact that they gave birth. And I bite my lip and smile and listen to their babbling, because my child likes their children while I would really like to pack my stuff and go.
Maybe it is just that it is summer and I see all those people going out in the evening, to the cinema, for a drink in the pub or just to hang out and chat. Young people. Damnit, I am young as well! Or, I will be again once I get a good night's sleep and just one day off.
So that is not the reason for my feeling ... out of place somehow.
The days are rare, yet sometimes it hits me that I am "just" a mother and wife now. Oh, and a housekeeper of course. I don't mean this to sound devaluating. Most of the time I am aware that I am doing one of the hardest jobs on the planet and am just shamefully underpaid.
Still, there are days like today when I am painfully aware that most of my friends are miles away from me, that I left behind me a life and a job that I liked very much, that the people I talk to are mostly other mothers who have actually nothing else in common with me but the fact that they gave birth. And I bite my lip and smile and listen to their babbling, because my child likes their children while I would really like to pack my stuff and go.
Maybe it is just that it is summer and I see all those people going out in the evening, to the cinema, for a drink in the pub or just to hang out and chat. Young people. Damnit, I am young as well! Or, I will be again once I get a good night's sleep and just one day off.